I have come to the conclusion, that no matter how determined you might be, the stress that comes from being a mommy of an infant and a six year old is enough to cause major set backs in a person's diet. We are now 2 1/2 months into my diet. I am down 3 pounds. Not where I wanted to be, but I will take anything. Before my pregnancy, I wore a size 16 (10 before my daughter). Now, I am ashamed to say I am wearing a size 22 (although a 22 is pretty baggy, but my butt won't allow a 20 to fit over it!). My goal for the end of this summer....to be able to fit into at least an 18. I think this would help with some self confidence issues I am having right now, and will help push me to loose more weight.
Now for the personal stuff....being the biggest I have ever been has put a lot on me. It is harder for me to move around, I'm embarrassed, ashamed, and the biggest issue.....my husband. When we first met, I was half the size I am today. Everyday I have the same thoughts......Why is he still here?......Is he ashamed too?.....Is he looking at other women wishing he had a woman like that? Being unhappy with your body opens up a whole world of issues. For my sanity, my health, my confidence, and possibly my marriage......I will continue to watch what I eat, and possibly work harder at achieving my ultimate goal.
3 down, 97 to go.